Sometimes...
...I just want to disappear.
I don't know if any of you listen to Nine Inch Nails, but this is how life feels right now:
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feeling disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
"And everything seemed to be going so well."
I don't know if any of you listen to Nine Inch Nails, but this is how life feels right now:
I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
upon my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stains of time
the feeling disappear
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way
"And everything seemed to be going so well."
posted by Scott at 4:01 PM
3 Comments:
Isn't it great to have heavy music to turn to, to feel like someone empathizes with your plight? It cuts through so much of the BS.
Hang in there, Scott.
*hugs*
just keep the faith, scott. you'll be a better person afterwards.=)
wow - quite a deviation from Squiggle Trivia, I must say! I always picture Johnny Cash when I hear that song, because of his haunting version. Re: the mandatory pep talk - Hang in there, everything happens for a reason - you'll look back at this day and say "Thank God!" and rah rah rah. I know, I know, I can hear you now - "FUCK that SHIT!". But believe me, being cheerful is a lot healthier than the opposite. And all of us (your loved ones) can't perceive life with a healthy and happy scotty, so if you're not gone survive for you, then do it for us. And we're all, collectively, individually, or in small packs, available to shoot the shizit if you want/need an ear. We love ya, bud.
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